Suck It

When I was a little girl, I used to sit in front of the TV with my dad and we would watch "Saturday Night Live." That was always my favorite show. Sometimes, I would even write sketches and perform them with my friends. Obviously, they weren't that great, since I was only twelve years old. But at the time, I thought they were the greatest thing in the world. I would sit and pine away for the day that when I grow up, I would go on to become a famous writer. Maybe even for SNL, then go on to create my own sitcom loosely based on my life, write a screenplay that was sort of a modern day "Clueless," and then become an "accidental" actress who takes over the world, not because of looks, not because of infamous notoriety, but because I actually have talent. And then Tina Fey did it, and I figured that I better get a move on it!

You see, I grew up in a rather conflicted environment where I've been surrounded by crazy characters in my everyday life; a family as nutty as the clan on "Arrested Development," friends as funny as the real "Friends," and dysfunctional relationships far worse than any "Sex And The City" episode. So if there was one thing for certain, it's that I was born to be a writer.

Of course when I told my family and friends that I was moving to pursue my dreams of becoming a TV writer by moving to Hollywood, they laughed. Yep, that's right, they laughed, chuckled, and giggled, as if they thought I was crazy. Me... moving to Hollywood to become a writer? Ha! I mean, does that sound so far fetched and incredibly absurd? Yes? OK fine, maybe a little. But you have to start somewhere, right?

And ever since I've been out here, I've gotten nothing but "So, did you find a job yet?" or "So, you're still not working?" Let me answer that question for you - Yes, I just got the green light that I'm going to write and executive produce my own show, you haven't heard? Kidding! I'm just being sarcastic. No, I haven't found a job yet. I JUST GOT HERE THREE WEEKS AGO! And no, I'm not coming home. I didn't move across the country to give up and move back home after just a couple of weeks.

So to everyone who laughed at me, to everyone who doesn't think I'll make it... like Tina Fey said in her Golden Globe speech, you can go suck it! Because when the day comes that I become successful, I'm going to remember the people who helped me, encouraged me and inspired me, not the ones who laughed at me and doubted me.


So for now I sit and watch "30 Rock," my favorite show on television right now, in awe of Liz Lemon and Jenna Mulroney, as they portray the characters that are so like my best friend and myself (Me being Liz of course, the geeky writer, and my best friend being Jenna, the blonde beautiful actress). And I still sit and pine away for the day that that will happen to me. Because I have enough material to last five sitcom pilots, two screenplays and a book. And I just turned twenty seven! Yes, my life has been anything but ordinary. A sitcom waiting to happen. A sitcom I believe has been written in the stars. And I couldn't have written it any better myself.